I'm feeling better about moving now. I still miss my friends, but I feel it's more ok now. That probably has something to do with the fact that I've been able to hang out with them, even after the school year ended. I missed them terribly all through the summer, up until I was able to hang out with my friend Jeremy in August when we went boating for a mutual activity (church activity for 12-18yr olds). It was the first time I'd ever gone boating, and it was really fun!!! I also got to hang out with him a few more times in August, and I finally got to hang out with another best friend, Emily in September, the day before school started for them. :) And I also got to see another friend, Alec, that day too. It was a really cool unexpected surprise, and I had a LOT of fun hanging out w/ Emily.

The next day wasn't so great though. As I sat on my bed looking at my clock, and I saw it was 8 o'clock, I wanted to bawl. I kept repeating to myself, frustrated and mournful, "I should be in school, I should be in school." School starting for them made it worse, because I guess my brain finally accepted that I wouldn't be attending the same school as them this year. September thru half of November I had depression. September it was the worst. On the first day of school for me, I was angry, oh so angry. I ready to get in a fight with someone-over just about anything. Those first two months, I didn't care about school, I didn't care about my grades, I didn't want to make ANY new friends (except for at church), my interests were gone, and my eating and sleeping habits changed. There was a cloud of saddness over me, and I felt lonely some of the time. Fortunately, (or unfortunately, you pick) I'm used to sitting by myself, and I even enjoy it some times. Even so, it was still just so hard for me to not see them every day- the fact that I went to school knowing that I wouldn't see them was almost heartbreaking.
I was able to see my friends Jeremy and Emily a few more times during that segment of the school year, and so, I think that helped- a lot. I guess it helped my brain to understand that even though we had moved away, we were, for the first time, still close enough that we can still occasionally hang out.

And on that note, I am SOO excited for our Christmas Party next Saturday. Oh my word! I'll be seeing them in ONE WEEK!!!!!  ^_^  :D!